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Hey, this is post #999. The next post will be the 1000th. But it’s going to have to wait just a bit longer.
I am dealing with severe depression and anxiety and have a ton of work to do because I’ve been struggling with it all summer.
I promise the celebration will be great. But it’s not going to happen for just a bit longer.
My deepest apologies. Mental health comes first. Never forget that for yourselves.
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You know you are on the right path when you feel like ‘This isn’t costing me my power. This isn’t costing me my psyche. This isn’t costing me my soul. I am not confused on a deep level. I’m not drained.’ I can be tired after a day’s work, but not psychically drained. I’m not losing myself. I’m not negotiating my sense of integrity. I’m not losing life. Why? Because you’re not betraying yourself in any way. And you don’t have to compromise who you are. When you do, you put poison in your own mouth. Every choice is either going to enhance your spirit or drain your spirit. If you compromise yourself to the point in which you feel drained or depleted, then you’ve betrayed yourself.
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I want to beat my self harm urges, but I’m having a hard time with that.
So, I’ve come up with an idea.
Everyone who reblogs this post will get their tumblr url written in a notebook.
Every time I feel like relapsing, I will look through the list and choose one at random and look through their blog.
Please, I really think this will help me.
Anything to help. :)
I’ve been told a few times that I should do more personal posts, so here’s one for you:
I just got awesome news from my graduate school! I was very recently given an extension on my degree so I could get more experience teaching in, and so the way weekly hours work, I was going to have to get an extra class in addition to teaching two sections and thesis hours. The wonderful lady I’ve been e-mailing has gotten permission for me to only have to do my thesis hours instead of taking an extra class that I in no way need. I only needed something to fill that slot, even though I have completed all of my class requirements. So now I can relax and only stress about the classes I’m teaching, not one that I have to take!
I just found that out, and I’m in a very good mood! Life has been really stressful lately, so I’ve been off the grid quite a bit. I still have a ton of stuff to do to get ready for next semester, because I need to get my syllabus in ship-shape. I still need to finish the prompts for the major essays and then figure out where I need to shuffle my daily activities to. I think I’m underestimating how much can be done in 55-minute class sessions, so I’m having a hard time figuring out what would and wouldn’t be appropriate. I need to get three essay prompts done and then day-to-day schedule for Unit 1. I’m struggling with the prompts, but I think things will go much more smoothly once they’re taken care of.
Okay, so that’s pretty much it for the main portion of this post! There are a few lovely people who have messaged me recently that I haven’t gotten back to—I promise that I haven’t forgotten. My mental energy has been spread a bit thin lately, and I have this weird anxiety thing where I can’t really reply to people unless I am able to give them my complete, unstressed attention. So I’m not ignoring you—I’m just a bit freaked out about life, because this school stuff is just the tip of things.
I love you all, and I just had to share the good news with someone, so I hope you enjoyed hearing from me at what is 3 AM where I currently am.
Thanks for reading, and I promise I’ll get back on the ball soon. :)
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